The other day my GF and I had the 'talk'...
Long story short, our relationship hit the event horizon, and was sucked into the black hole in which most relationships eventually wind up. I'm sure we'll remain good friends, unlike most of the women I've been in relationships with. We have too much common ground to fade from each others lives. So, what's the proper nomenclature now? is she my EX-Girlfriend? Is there an official amount of time that needs to pass before she becomes an ex? Speaking of making things official, her Facebook account has been switched to 'single'.
All of this is not a pleasant experience per se, but it has been coming now for over a month. The truth is, I'm usually a lot more severe when it comes to ending relationships. Most of the time, it's pretty harsh actually. This time however, I think we've both handled it as well as could be expected, but now it's time to move forward.
It's funny how little I have any impulse whatsoever to do much besides stay in and watch old movies, or listen to music. Even writing has little appeal to me nowadays. I guess with the end of Date Machine, I feel a bit burned out. I think I'm just in need of a general break from relationships, writing and most everything else. Now the only question is...'For how long?'
I mean, I know myself. I could easily just shift into a a totally comatose state shutting off contact, even from myself. How much time should I allow myself before I start over again? It's easier for her being a hot young chick. All she needs to do is go out to a bar with her friends, and she'll get back in the swim. I can pretty much guarantee that she'll be out meeting people before I will. It's just a harder proposition for me. I hate going out. Do I put up another profile on Nerve? If so when? Right now, the last thing I feel like doing is going out on coffee dates. Is there a point where I've got to force myself to get back out there, just to interact with people? Shit... the level of interaction I'm capable of is like one step up from Rain Man....IF THAT!
All my facebook accounts are disabled along with my myspace and Nerve profile. I'm off the grid.
It feels pretty good.
